Say Anything - “Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too”
And I don’t even have one good dad. Ugh the whole story with him is convoluted and shitty so I’m not going to stress myself out with telling the story of our relationship. But at this very moment, I wish to God that I had two dads. I don’t know why, but I really do.
Mainly because of the fact that my period is coming. But it doesn’t make my feeling less valid! Up until just now I felt like wanted to run outside and scream and pretend to conjure spirits or whatever and set like a tree bark on fire or something. This is a peculiar feeling. Also I feel like screaming about how I fucking hate people and their fake shit. And how I don’t have a lunch table and that people noticed. I’m happy that the cheer coach is giving me another chance to prove myself but I haven’t stretched at all. Just some really basic stuff that’s hardly going to help me out. I guess I don’t really think I belong. I have to be outgoing and pretty and can jump high. I am none of those things. But anyway so my sister made a status about how people are talking shit behind her back and my best friend in the whole world -who I’m sorry to say that I forgot about in my times of loneliness - said that she’d beat the shit out of anyone that hurt my sister and that she’s got her back. And she called Kayla her little sister.
And suddenly I was a big ball of emotion again.
I need to get rid of this nervous energy that I have but I don’t know how.
